Dear Kids,
So today was another crazy day. Thursdays are not so bad from a Law School perspective, but both of you have activities. I love that, but hate it at the same time. Although I made the decision to attend law school, I cannot allow you to not participate in any activities because I cannot pick you up. I could send you to after care, but that would cost me $30 each day (I am too cheap for that if I don’t have to be). The fact is, I love running around, picking up and dropping off. 5 years ago when I chose to return to work, I longed for the time when you both had playdates, and school clubs. I know postpartum depression (I will teach you guys what that means when the time is right) led me to return to work, and although I love having a career, I ponder what life would be like if I was home everyday waiting for both of you to come home from school.
Your dad never once questioned my decision to work 5 years ago, even if it was hairbrained on so many levels. He has always been good at letting me figure things out. I have to say, I have often believed that deciding to return to work when you were a baby K, contributed to a lot of your struggles now. Of course had I not returned to work, I most likely would not have reclaimed my goal of law school, and without your struggle K, I would not have found my purpose. I know that I am super busy right now, but I have vowed to make sure your growth is always first. I pray I can balance between school and you guys, and still excel. If I can’t and I have to choose, I know who wins. It will always be you.
Love you both a bunch,
Mom
Mom. Wife. Lawyer. 